[puen]

one

2009-12-31T23:46:00.002+08:00

one of my new year resolution: TO STOP ONLINE SHOPPING! ahh!

2009

2009-12-31T22:15:00.003+08:00

WHEREVER YOU WILL GO
THE CALLING

So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

[Chorus:]
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

[Chorus]

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

[Chorus]

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go

thank you for the beautiful ending(:

2009-12-20T16:20:00.002+08:00

2009-12-10T11:50:00.001+08:00

I dont know what I am actually thinking. Its coming back again. Crap.

2009-12-02T09:49:00.000+08:00

everything happened too quickly yesterday but i guess its indeed a relief for him. and grandma is really the bravest woman ever. really salute her for it. rest well grandpa and thank you very much, grandpa.

Play your part. Hopenhagen.

2009-11-20T23:46:00.003+08:00

Get it? I personally dont.

2009-10-24T22:50:00.000+08:00

The wound
where I got stung probably a decade or so ago
ripped open again.

I think
I need to go see kelly
to get it heal.

But probably
it will never heal
in time for this game.

Is it possible that what happened to Russell,
happen to me too?

I know it cant and it must'nt
but I secretly want it to.

What on earth am I talking about?
I have no idea too!
Ha!

A day of value creation.

2009-10-17T23:37:00.001+08:00

another brilliant day spent and i am glad that i went for the cic training and the youth concert(: it was just a blast and im so happy to meet my fellow comrades like daddy siyi and twin xingyi and crazy minxue who drew the above for me(: kathy's testimonial is super inspiring and after listening to her, i feel that what im going through is nothing. if she can do it, so can it! just like how yen can cook and so can you! okay no link. haha. i am really glad that found my focus and motivation again. i have to win and score a victory this A levels !

the youth concert was really really brilliant! super high and we were even more crazy becuase of people like hysen and minxue! haha! fei mao! haha. yutong, annie, ben hum were awesome! love yutong's voice ttm! orange cove were just simply woolala! and sean you got a brilliant great voice okay! and secretly i think daddy alvin is super cool and charismatic! (i just realise i got a lot of daddys. okay actually two plus a real one!) sydc were just so vibrant and full of energy(: and to the pianist and the violinist who played cheeze fries, you two are just so great! and i think violinist are just so cool! okay enough for now and im going to mug hard now! off i go!

i really wish that you can attend the next concert with me and the DIAL lecture too. i'll chant for that. woosh!

A winding road travelled.

2009-10-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

i went on a roller coaster ride this week and i am glad that i ended it off on a good note. thank you mr tong. thank you for making the effort and sticking to your belief which will benefit me even more despite influences from the rest. thank you mr pek. its time to learn and start moving on. like what shushu said, after being aware of the issue, now its about how you go about overcoming it and whether you have the courage and faith to do. and it is only by doing so, will you improve and really grow.

yes this is it. i will need a hell lot of time for it but i will do it. i promise you.

2009-10-11T00:35:00.001+08:00

friday marked the last day of school, though there is still post prelim prog going on. haha.

i just wanna say a big THANK YOU to everyone who has made life in vj so brilliant! in particular, to my classmates from v11 and s41 and the wushu people! of course not forgetting the teachers(: those memories are just so hard to be replaced and they will be cherished and remembered! what made farewell even more memorable was the last 15-20 mins of geog lecture on thurs.

to mr josef, i could really feel for you when you typed the first paragraph. not being able to realise one's dream is already very saddening. what made it worst was the fact that you are still so passionate about your dream that you will twig and turn activities and actions to make you feel like you are living your dream. the need to imagine that you are living it, the need to delude yourself and escape from reality, despite it being really fake; it just makes one's heat shatter. its really not easy for you to share your dream with us and i really really appreciate it that you did. you touched so many lives in the lt during that last 15mins as evident from all the sniffing and tearing.

'teachers are there to help students develop themselves and realise their potential.'

'as you grow older, you should choose something that you are competent and passionate in.'

i'll remember them. thank you mr josef.

i have to do some self reflection about my character and behaviour. i made a fool of myself so many times last week and made pople around me upset and disappointed. in particular, i hope that things will be fine between me and the person in blue in my screen saver because it really sucks when i saw you the other day and i dint dare to talk to you and we dint even say hi.

i enjoyed the skyline at the rooftop and i think it will look even more spectacular under the moonlight. in the meantime, its back to books and more studying because theres barely one month left! jiayous peeps!

a brand new day. a brand new stage.

2009-10-04T13:07:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF(:
im 18 le! gosh! haha and i really enjoyed this birthday loads, from the 'surprise' birthday celeb till the actual day itsself! all the well wishes and gifts! the bag, the necklace, diary, and notepad! thanks so much people(: i really appreciate it loads! feel so bleassed to have so many good friends around me(: kudos to june in particular! bff(: haha! and on a side note, everyone's birthday notes this year seem to have a common theme for some funny reasons! lol.

ytd was a good day cause it was shopping day! bought so many nice stuff(: and shopped at zara for the first time with a 40 bucks coat and a top in return!(: then went for bysi's sales and bought a dress and bag! so happy(: haha. went to this super nice place for lunch! kudos to daddy for that. haha.

okay now to the not so happy stuff. results. really disappointed and worried with my grades now. i gotta get over them asap and work harder so that i can make it big during As! yes! i must and so must everybody okay!(: and may loo! really appreciate the chat online that day! got everything out and im so relieved now. i will learn to put it aside and smile! hope that i will be able to pull through it!(:

oh and i talked to der online that day! it was really nice being able to talk to him like that again. haha. and its really cool cause we both are rather similar in some ways! he got into pharmacy in nus back then and almost went to uk to further his studies but dint cause of the cost. transferred to mse. haha. and he told me thats the only engineering course with the least phy! haha. maybe i will apply for that for plan B. haha!

be strong and set your priorities right. no point dwelling into it and get yourself so upset when others dont even bother about it. smile everyday and never estimate the power of it. dont give up and use faith to see things instead of your naked eye. and stop committing the affective fallacy!

yes! jiayous puen! jiayous to everyone! 36 more days to the beginning of it! woosh!

2009-09-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

okay the last bit of prelims left. H3! prelims has really woken me up and got me pondering. woosh. okay. h3!

it just totally dropped and fell upon hearing it. no warning no caution which results in it being at a loss now. oh wells once it ends, it will be able to find a new direction again. hopefully a positive one.

2009-09-18T18:54:00.000+08:00

now i know how it really feels like.

i better pick myself up before everything is really gone.

woosh!

CALL THE MAN

CELINE DION

Close the door
Shut the world away
All the fight's gone from this wounded heart
Across the floor
Dreams and shadows play
Like wind blown refugees

Call the man
Who deals in love beyond repair
He can heal the world
Of hearts in need of care
Shine a light ahead
When the next step is unclear
Call the man
He's needed here

I close my eyes
I remember when
Your sweet love filled this empty room
The tears I cry
Won't bring it back again
Unless the lonely star should fall

Call the man
Who deals in love beyond repair
He can heal the world
Of hearts in need of care
Shine a light ahead
When the next step is unclear
Call the man
He's needed here

Needed in the chaos and confusion
From the plains to city hall
Needed where the proud who walk the wire are set to fall

Call the man
Who deals in once upon a time
Maybe he
Can mend this broken heart of mine
Shine a light ahead
Now the future isn't clear
Call the man
He's needed here
Call the man
He's needed here

He's needed here
He's needed here
Call the man

He's needed here
Right here right now

2009-09-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

Your eyes may not allow you to see the entire truth.

Your faith and heart will allow you to.

Have faith.

Follow your heart.

And you will find the truth.

Geog wasnt that bad but I think I screwed it up. Kept stoning. MATH!

2009-09-12T18:09:00.000+08:00

"Sofa is the most important furniture in a house.
We broke up because of it
but we also got back together because of it.
It is the stop-point for couples
so as to allow them to rest
and spend more memories together."

heard that in one super old channel 8 drama serial that i was watching over lunch. haha. okay. mug!

times of innocence.

2009-09-10T23:47:00.010+08:00

saw it at althea's blog. remember watching it during geog lecture.

mug mug mug. oh i just love to mug.

body please dont fail on me!

folks flying off on sat. hope they can buy loads of nice stuff back. and it means one week at home with sis ALONE.

puen must stop going for online retail therapy. speaking of which, kelly hasnt reach my mailbox yet=/ hope she doesnt go missing!

prelims. too much of breath till the details are starting to fly. chem is getting me worried. geog in 4days. wisdom and courage needed for it. loads of it. h3. barely started. gosh.

good luck to puen. good luck to everyone. jiayous!

one down!

2009-09-02T21:29:00.002+08:00

ohh i was on the verge of moving to livejournal cause i just cant upload pictures onto blogger but i solved it(:

haha saw this online the other day. super tempted by them cause they are so pretty(:

ok i shouldnt be visiting these online blog shops now. today was gp paper. could write the essay but im just worried that i end up as a descriptive one. felt that i could have developed the points further but oh wells. haha! yup i shall return to more mugging in the meantime! jiayous people!

i really dont know what to say. and i got the right to be angry right?

For you and for me.

2009-08-30T19:13:00.002+08:00

woosh mr tong's lecture is a blast as usual. really enjoy going for his lecture though i think my brain isnt of that high capacity to absorb and understand at once. haha. and i watched mj's world tour that was shown on tv in the afternoon. omg its super super good(: love his songs! heal the world, you are not alone, thriller(: woosh!

gosh prelims are starting in the coming week. feel so unprepared=/ somehow i got this bad feeling about prelims and my As cause of past experiences but ohwells, i shant think about them and just chiong my way through. and personal statements are annoying stuff!

anw a personality quiz that i got tagged by shuqi to do on fb. haha. its pretty cool(:
heres the link: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

JIAYOUS FOR PRELIMS PEEPS!(:

2009-08-17T21:56:00.002+08:00

grow up puen! grow up!

screams!

go and munch more haribo! be good!

2009-08-16T19:57:00.000+08:00

lychee martini and peach martini(:

had a great time ytd with the girls and we shall have more chill out sessions alright?

time is really flying like nobody's business and im kind of tired and drained already=/ super worried for geog in particular because i havent exactly started on atmosphere at all.

oh wells. jiayous to puen and everyone out there! we will make it(: in the mean time, pm's rally speech!

chopped!

2009-08-06T23:30:00.000+08:00

i can go join the As and Es department(: haha. i shall strive harder and make improvements by prelims! deal!

tired but happy(:

2009-08-03T20:06:00.000+08:00

why do i feel it coming back?

it sucks.
hopefully im just paranoid.

2009-08-01T23:49:00.000+08:00

"The worth and excellency of a soul is measured by the object and intensity of its love."

credits to derrick. haha.
off to bed! goodnight folks(:

nostalgia

2009-07-31T23:55:00.000+08:00

after looking at der's fb photos, i suddenly miss those times we spent, tgt with jz, in labs doing expts and talking nonsense. about overseas trips, life, chinese, food, his school days and what not. haha. kinda missing those days now. haha.

random! ok back to geog case studies!

HAHA!

2009-07-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

Monday, March 03, 2008
i m going to be the joke of the century if this really is true! i swear i really am going to be!
feeling malu-ated now! but its alright since its infront of 'malu'(: i love you dear!

Wednesday, March 05, 2008
the song that i enjoy listening to now everyday
is the song that you (once) enjoyed listening to.

every time i listen to it
it makes me remind of you

realising the importance of it when it is gone
is what i m doing now

it was right in front of me back then
but i happily and openly
gave it up

puen
this is what you have to pay for
for doing ti back then

i just hope that you havent given up hope
and things will work out fine...

Saturday, March 22, 2008

i think that my intelligence level is regressing day by day=/

firstly,
i told someone something that i shouldnt have said.
of everyone i chose to tell you!
i just hope that you keep your promise
and shut your mouth up

secondly,
i told you.
i dont know why i did,
maybe its cause of the quote that mark showed me,
"love is giving yourself up to the other person, giving the other person a chance to destroy you, and trusting them not to."
or maybe the conversation we had was just the perfect chance to say it (if i wanted to).
since i always wanted to get an answer
and wanted to know how you feel
so i decided to tell you all those things yesterday

i know i have just made life more confused and terrible for you
but i just couldnt bottle it in my heart anymore
my heart is unable to withstand the high pressure within it anymore

no matter what your final answer is
i will just accept it.
if its negative, its alright cause i so deserve it.
if its positive, happy is what i will be

no matter what your final answer is
good friends we will remain,
and thats for sure.
right?

thirdly,
i fell into the drain while climbing through the gate!
lucky i didnt fall into the section with the mud or else....
and qiuyan was damn funny!
she was like," how come puen suddenly missing huh?!"
HAHA!
i m thankful
cause there are no major injuries.
just that part of my ass hurts
and i have a bruise on my elbow.

special dedication to my darlings. 'A' girls(:

things hasnt been smoothly this season
unexpected things kept happening
but we managed to overcome each obstacle
and move on and strengthen our bond as a team

like what jiaolian said," who doesnt want to win in a competition?"
yes, winning is one thing
but displaying your best , bonding as a team and putting in your utmost efforts is another

a team can win all the medals in the world
but they can have conflicts within their team
this wont bring them far in a long run
yes, they may win this year
but due to all the unhappiness and conflicts they have in their team
they might not be able to make it through to the next year

in comparison to another team
who might not have won the champion this year
but they have a strong team spirit and a strong bond between every member
they are able to sail through hardships and overcome them
together as a team

this is what will bring a team far
the ability to cheer your team member on every time they feel down
to motivate them when they start to backslide
solve all obstacles that appears as a team
although there are many bodies of people in the team
by overcoming every obstacles with one mind
is what really makes a team
a respectable one.

what we can do now is to fight on and buck up
cheer and motivate each other
offer a helping hand
such that we can all overcome all the various obstacles
as a team
as one

whether we win the champs or not,
it is important
but not the most

the most important is
whether or not we progressed and improved
as an individual
as a team

all the way 'A' girls!
i know miracles do happen
and we can do it(:

and like what zhengfeng said, "that week, we dominate"

also,
i really appreciate the presence of all of you a lot
everyone of you
without you all,
i really dont know
how i can pull through wushu trainings and stuff

THANK YOU my dears(:

2009-07-26T22:06:00.000+08:00

haha just read a couple of old posts. damn funny. din understand what i was writing then and couldnt recall some of the stuff too. haha. and it really still amazes me how things has changed over just half a year after the end of ip2. but am glad that those changes took place(:

ok off to proper work now. personal statement. gosh!

remember. you are not alone(:

2009-07-23T11:00:00.001+08:00

YOU ARE NOT ALONE
MICHAEL JACKSON

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

2009-07-18T22:42:00.003+08:00

finally a proper break after so long. had h3 test and it was... hehe.

got back two papers(: happy with the results but the most worrying ones arent back at all=( i really hope i can improve for all jus the way i did for physics! haha.

last week was nice. talks with friends are highly highly treasured(: and mr tong's class is like omg godlike(: i really enjoy his class and i hope that i can improve my gp while gaining insights to your own mind. mr tong is really an amazing tutor!

im really shocked by something that happened over the last week. its really impacted me alot and im really frightened. after going through so much together, it happened. and its something that was really really unexpected. i hope that it wont happen next year. i really dont wan to after seeing how helpless and painful it can be. be strong my friend and to her, please have the wisdom to think through carefully before making your final decision.

please i really dont want to.

oh and wushu photos are up le people! on facebook(:

after so long..

2009-07-10T21:47:00.004+08:00

finally! after all the pushing back and dragging, CTs are over(: one hope. to improve for my physics and get out of the 55 curse! haha.

i like how things are now and hope they will remain the way they are. there is still h3 test next week and i gotta start thinking as stated in mr cook's email!

be happy (:

oh and wushu photos from jts cum handover! SOON people! sorry but im kinda lazy>.<

2009-06-25T14:39:00.002+08:00

是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己横行
忘了我也值得被关心

一双手一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲

痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

2009-06-23T21:40:00.002+08:00

haha okay cool. CTs are postpone(: gp only starts on the 7th of july (tues). haha.

haha and im eating mee siam now. haha.

when i look into the mirror.

2009-06-20T22:38:00.002+08:00

just read two people's blog that made me feel emotional again.

and one of them is grace. really got find sometime for proper catch up with her man! haha. its always nice when you know that you have friends who you can depend on and who appreciates you(:

and to the other, i really feel the same way as you and i hope that i can be as strong as you.

on a happier note, this hols has been good so far, other than the mugging part. i gotta meet grace and alicea, although it was for mugging! nice seeing them and mugging with them again(: also, i feel that i grown slightly stronger this hols. slightly. though its still raining for the past few nights, at least, it doesnt hurt so much during meet ups and over messages. i am glad with how things are now and hope it can sustain till then(:

oh and talks with alicea and may about higher ed were hilarious yet stressful. hilarious cause of the plans we have if we all get over, like invading the guys hall when they come over in our third and fourth year so as to save on accomodation! stressful because we all know that no scholarship = no uk, and we all havent really settled on what we want and TIME IS RUNNING SHORT! screams! had a better, but still messy, idea on my plans. gonna talk to mr teo on mon and hope he can give me more advice and i can settle on something soon. gotta find time to talk to folks about it too.

in the mean time, back to physics and JIAYOUS people(:

Soka University of Japan

2009-06-13T20:29:00.004+08:00

"I may not be the best person around;
but i have attended the best university ever.
The university founded by ikeda sensei."

thank you for sharing that with all of us(:
i really appreciate it a lot.

reflection.

2009-06-07T21:42:00.003+08:00

WE DID IT(:
1st team to complete the race and with the 2nd fastest timing for 7legged!
thank you everyone who has made this possible(:

managed to meet many long lost peeps esp XINGYI AND GUO MINXUE!(:

and once again, i felt strongly for the following two lyrics.

COS' WE ARE
NICHOLAS RAO

There is something in our lives
That speaks of joy, of peace, and love
So we’ll exert, wholehearted effort
To find this treasure trove

Hand in hand we’ll walk this path
With the heart of a lion king
Through ups and downs, problems of every kind
We’ll push on with our dreams

Chorus
Cos’ we are young leaders
Fulfilling a mission
That takes us through wonders
Of our dimension
Our mentor calls for us to guide;
Unlock the wisdom that’s inside

Cos’ we are young fighters
Fulfilling a mission
Armed with the sword
That speaks of the Lotus
With faith we can achieve
With faith we know that we will be
The very best that we can be

As the days just pass us by
Our faith will link us heart to heart
Strong bonds we share; are priceless and rare
We’ll treasure what we have

While we spread the mystic truth
Evil forces will come our way
Through ups and downs, problems of every kind
We’ll overcome and win

(Repeat chorus twice)

With faith I can achieve
With faith I believe that we will be
The very best that we can be
__________________________________________________________

YOUNG EAGLES (kudos to SAM for the lyrics!)

Sometime I feel that I don’t know
Who or what am I
But then I know that I must strive
To keep a dream alive

For the world is out there waiting
For someone to make a change
As students, we’ll take this challenge
The world is our stage

Chorus
Grow now together
Can you hear our cries
Go now together
Change other people’s lives
Smile now forever
Let’s fill the orld with joy
Young Eagles let us fly....

The sun is rising can’t you see
It brightens up the sky
And that is how we’ll live our lives
Come join me, as we try

For we know our mentor’s calling
We must be strong and brave
We’ll raise the flag of justice
Create a whole new age

(Chorus 3x)

Would you?

2009-06-04T20:15:00.002+08:00

and once again.
i am really tired.
really really tired.

when Love Story meets Viva La Vida...

2009-05-24T19:08:00.007+08:00

awesome piece(:
and its from a dad to his daughter(:

copes

2009-05-23T15:05:00.004+08:00

yays finally with my dearest get high(: and i saw joycelyn mei plus her dearest too! but i forgot about photo! damn! (and i look fat in the photo!=S)

i gotta get hold of my emotions
before things that i cant afford to screw will screw up
and if it does
it will be ~~doomslife~~ doomsday.

get high(:

2009-05-16T17:16:00.002+08:00

OH AND I FORGOT TO SAY! VBALL MATCHES LET ME MEET MY DEAREST GET HIGH PARTNER JOEY LIKE AFTER I DUNNO HOW LONG !!! YAYSNESS TO MONDAY BECAUSE I WILL GET TO MEET HER AGAIN(:

thats why vball is love((:

new addiction(:

2009-05-15T19:50:00.004+08:00

woosh! busy busy week! but happening one(: and im addicted to vball!>.<

a short para to sum it all up!

I AM REALLY PROUD OF GUYS, VJVB! (:
although you all make me and caitlin's heart suffer from servere heart attacks over the past few days, its all worth it because you all gave it your all and earned respect from everyong, including mr tan! like how cool is that man?! haha! although today's result wasnt what you all wanted, its sufficient already. you all gave your hear and soul and thats what mattered(: i really salute you all for your mental stamina because if its me or caitlin on court, we probably wont be able to take it and break down during the game! i really proud of you all and have a good rest over the weekend okay! its been a long but eventful week for you all(:

oh and the girls are on monday! JIAYOUS and get what you all deserve back k!(:

i gotta focus and stop thinking of match supports already! ahhhh!

prehistoric!

2009-05-08T20:07:00.002+08:00

found some really old and cool photos on redsports! the above is an example. how chang hong who's birthday happens to be today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! there are other more classic ones! CLICK HERE to check them out and have a good laugh to relax yourself(: well at least thats what i did! haha!

(365)

2009-04-28T19:48:00.001+08:00

The watch tells the time.
The time tells the truth.
So watch for what the future has for you.

维武独尊

2009-04-26T09:08:00.005+08:00

wushu interschool 2009 is officially over and im so so proud of the team((:

although we were all awarded the 1st runner up, it didnt mattered to us because we know that we are champions! we possessed the spirit that got everyone envying and staring at us while we were celebrating after the prize presentation. we all still smiled brightly knowing we all did our best(: we have gone through so much as a team that the final results didnt mattered that that much. wushu team 2009 is love<3

LOVE<3

I HAVE A DREAM.

2009-04-14T17:16:00.001+08:00

speechless.
its because she had a dream.
charice you are amazing!<3

rewind.

2009-04-12T21:03:00.006+08:00

i miss those days...
innocent, fun, carefree days(:
but the present isnt too bad too!
is it?

crazy but love!

2009-04-12T20:55:00.001+08:00

im sorry girls for everything but all the way vj wushu alright(: wednesday will be our day(: love you all ttm!<3

question mark?

2009-04-05T15:31:00.003+08:00

A LITTLE TOO NOT OVER YOU
DAVID ARCHULETA

It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go, I'll never understand.
I'll never understand, yeah, oohh..
Oohhh, oohhh, oohhhh..
Oohhh, ooohhhh, oohhh.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
And I really don't know what to do.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you, oohhh..

screams.

haribo bears are love<3

2009-04-05T14:57:00.004+08:00

woosh! friday is the crucial one and its down. WELL DONE EVERYONE! although the outcome may not be the best, we all know the reason why. completed my first event. wont say it was the best performance but oh wells, its over. and the worst was MR TAN CAME DURING MY EVENT! *SCREAMS* and he was so funny! he knew i will be scared if i see him so he wanted to hide behind the pillar! but he didnt know that it was me who noticed him and told the rest about his arrival! l0l! now im left with one, the one that i know i can but i gotta have the stamina and mental to do it. puen you have to do it and you must.

had trng ytd and birthday celebrations ytd after trng! haha it was fun fun to the max man! our dear zhangqian started smashing cake on jo and soon after everyone got involved! i think me jo zhangqian and kenn's shirts are the worst off! we all had choco cake on it and we had to change back to our trng shirt! smelly to the max lar! haha. i think kenn is the msot poor thing cause he got slapped by jo for nothing! haha! soon we left for ban mian and it was another round of hilarious jokes! after ban mian was new zealand ice cream at pp! pp was having crazy sales ytd and i got tempted again=/ its really fun hanging out with the wushu peeps cause they are just full of nonsense! haha! love you guys<3

some photos taken!

joanne's present! its a recipe book! *hints*

zhangqian's. a noisy soccer ball for a noisy soccer player and spongebob balloon!

us after washing our shirt!

us and our ice creams(:

FOUR MORE DAYS LEFT AND ALL THE WAY VJ WUSHU!
JIAYOUS AND WE WILL SHOW THEM THE VJ POWER!
THINGS MAY NOT BE IN OUR STRIDE BUT ITS ALRIGHT BECAUSE WE ARE FROM VJC((:
维武独尊！

nil.sine.labore

2009-04-04T09:39:00.002+08:00

ALL THE WAY VJ WUSHU!
THREE DAYS DOWN FOR COMP AND WE ARE GOING ON STRONG!
WE WILL MAKE IT THROUGH STRONG ALRIGHT!
HANG ON PEOPLE!
WE WILL OWN THEM
AND KEEP THEIR MOUTHS SHUT!
JIAYOUS!<33

(wanted to put a team photo but i jus realised we dont have a complete one yet=/)

i really dunno.

11.

2009-03-29T20:13:00.001+08:00

its coming.
3 more days to official beginning.
5 more days to my first.
877.
all the way people!

tomorrow will decide it all. whether it will take a steep and irreversible turn or it will allow me to pull through. in any case, i am grateful to gohonzon for allowing me pull through the past one week odd pretty smoothly.

11. one one. eleven. what a special number. especially for this very day, the 29th.

4th.

2009-03-22T15:06:00.005+08:00

school is starting tomorrow. its gonna be back to the hectic busy life. hope i will be able to pull through another term, saying that i did it. starting the term off with h3 test isnt exactly the best way cause im dead. super clueless about whats going on=/ wish me luck!

you will not be my first choice but my only choice. its the case before, now and forever no matter what happened.

学会包容不完美，就一切完美

2009-03-21T20:43:00.003+08:00

放了爱
郭美美

你指向远方爱情很晴朗
笑问不如今后就我们俩
怕泪会反光钻进你的胸膛
但那不是感动是泪无法储藏

把美梦锁上以为是天堂
羽翼折起在你身边静静躺
却只能用目光空中翱翔
还得乔装安份靠在你的肩膀

放了爱为了爱
这不是我该怎么生活
放了爱

你说你喜欢我笑得开朗
你越温柔我越不想撒谎
我已办不到你想要的那样
客气地配合你我感觉更勉强

别人的幸福何必要模仿
心不在何苦留躯壳在身旁
加满自由我要无重量飞翔
就算以分离收场

放了爱为了爱
这不是我该怎么生活
放了爱会明白
有种拥有叫做放手

我的心为爱流离失所
紧握最后回家的线索
等到寻获真正的我
证明我决定没有错

放了爱为了爱
这不是我想要的生活
放了爱你会明白
有种拥有叫做放手
放了爱

2009-03-21T20:11:00.002+08:00

training was just atrocious today. its really disheartening with comp nearing nearing so badly. haix. oh wells. buck up girls(: we shall make the impossible possible alright(:

i love perfect cut 2(: super nice show(:

i feel for kelly. i know how badly she just wanted her phone to ring. i know.

400th post.

2009-03-20T15:33:00.003+08:00

a girl told this guy, "could you speak slower and think before you speak? because words arent suppose to hurt others; instead they should be used to say i love you."

well said(:

fullstop.

2009-03-19T00:01:00.001+08:00

its now no longer a semicolon. its a fullstop. just barely an hour, and a change. just like how its barely a day and how its barely a year.

raindrops keep fallin' on my head
and just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
nothin' seems to fit
those raindrops are fallin' on my head,
they keep fallin'

out.

2009-03-18T23:26:00.002+08:00

the dates are out.
3rd of april. 13 competitors.
8th of april. 8 competitors.
15th of april. 8 competitors.

15 more days.
4 more trainings.
4 events.
1 common goal.

jiayous puen!
jiayous vj wushu team!
we shall shine brightly like we always do(:

semicolon;

2009-03-18T23:20:00.002+08:00

its a new chapter of my life. a new beginning to it.
its the price that i have to pay because of the mistake.
and i hope this is all that i have to pay for it; just a new beginning to a new life and nothing else to it.
i cant afford anything more than it.

and once again.

2009-03-17T16:45:00.000+08:00

puen has to learn to be strong and courageous.
she mustn't let history repeat itself again.
she gotta make it this time.
she has to.

be strong puen. be strong.

black friday

2009-03-13T23:21:00.001+08:00

indeed today is the friday the 13th!

i need my health restore back to its tip top condition! screams!

after all the burning and pain, ITS OVER! (but for awhile)

2009-03-13T11:25:00.005+08:00

HI WORLD!

im back! haha. was having cts over the past week. i shant comment on it so yup. haha! and im suppose to be in school for vog now but i aint cause i got an mc. decided to be good and rest for trng later. woooo trng((:

the last two weeks were bad. had fever for like almost every night? and these bugs jus bug me like mad. they easily make me burn till like 38.8degrees every night=( so i have to race with time, finish up my revision before like 8 plus or 9 and they attack me, to ban me from studying! so i practically turn in at about 9 for the past two weeks or so! its rather annoying because i cant finish my revision!

went to the doc ytd and as predicted, blood test=/ i remember the last time that i took a blood test, i practically started crying once i entered the room, all the way till the end. i was crying so badly till i didnt know that the needle went in and came out=/ yeah i know its dumb but i was p5 then only. haha. so i went in this time, the lady was being nice by talking to me and stuff but obviously it didnt help. haha. but it wasnt as bad as i thought. jus that i was stunned when i saw the bottle of blood on the table after that. it really freaked me out for some reason. haha!

got my test and went back to the doc. no dengue nothing(: just a little anemic=/ haha!

got back my A level chinese(: thankfully, i got my A(: my one year effort really paid off(:

next week is gonna be a happening week too. trng, h3 lessons, and many many other stuff! gotta be back to my books soon because h3 test is on the first day of school and i hav a stack of tutorials to catch up=/ and comp is jus 2 weeks away!!!!! omt!!! im so so dead! i need to be fit and be on form!! screams!! and i am suppose to be writing my sponsorship letter before going out and it is so late already=S double screams!!

a new realisation. i need to learn to control my emotions. and to you two! thank you for being there with me for the whole of last week! without you two, probably i would really have jus.... (you two know)! haha! love you two loads!

am i over dependent on you?

No matter what I do, it is just wrong to you.

2009-03-03T16:23:00.004+08:00

LIKE A KNIFE
SECONDHAND SERENADE

I did a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
'Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasted away

'Cause today, you walked out of my life
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

'Cause today, you walked out of my life
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.

'Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life.

2009-02-24T19:19:00.002+08:00

a pair of diastereomers may just so well be discovered soon. and it rained once again after so so long that the owl into act last night again.

haha a random paragraph and i shall be off to more work! ct is just 2weeks away=/ jiayous people!(:

2009-02-12T19:52:00.002+08:00

school is busy busy busy but fun fun fun(:

there was orientation last week (: the j1s this year are high people man! haha. or mayb our batch was the uninterested ones. haha! kind of regretted not being an ogl at times but thought it was a blessing in disguise at times! oh and we had a class picnic session on friday while the j1s have their sea regatta. breakfast at macs and went biking to changi! it was tiring but fun fun(: really enjoy the ride and those pretty sceneries(:

this week has been really crazy so far. work work lessons lessons training training. loads to catch up and mug=( cts are 1 mth away!=/

tmr is a black friday and saturday is friendship cum vday! so be happy people((:

2009-02-01T21:35:00.003+08:00

just got home from dinner with paternal family. waited for my biggest uncle for an hour because he got the timings mixed up. and its like 5 tables worth of people waiting for the 3 of them. l0l. friday was a killer because it was a full day of lesson, and i was good enough to go for pe and followed by trng and then headed to uncle shawn's place until like 11? took a train back and reach home at 12. l0l. ytd was off to loyang valley for another gathering and played until like 12midnight? haha. so im totally worn out now. and gracie almost missed her flight back to hongkong ytd. haha!

next week is orientation which means fun fun because the juniors are coming in(: and also there will be no lectures next week(: but i have to start studying for ct1 because there are really a lot of topics tested=( i must improve and score better than promos! hahaha.

self note: remind the class that geog tutorial is at concourse tmr and to see miss lim in the morning before assembly=/

9 months has passed and she is due for labour(:

the NIU year!

2009-01-28T15:52:00.004+08:00

its my first day home so early because there is no trng for some funny reason today((:

chinese new year was fine, nothing much except loads of eating plus movie watching plus gambling plus laughing(: uncle alan started playing a game at popo's house on the first day of cny that got everyone working their abs because of the unlimited laughter we had! its a memory game thing that we got the adults and even my granny to play! its super hilarious when you see the adults' reactions when they get called! haha. gambling was good this year bcause i got like damn a lot of blackjacks(: watched ip man and dark knights at granny's and big aunt's and IP MAN IS REALLY GOOD((: now im trying to find time to watch red cliff 1&2! haha. and this year i ate a total of 4/5 yusheng and there is still more to come=S and ate popo's MEE SIAM and visited althea's house ytd((: fun fun((:

photos will be up soon once i collate all of them! haha!

tmr is going to be a happy happy day(: and im no longer lack of seratonin!((: for now its back to notes and work>.<

i know i resolved to be a better daughter this year but i just screwed it up on the first day of cny. im sorry. im still trying hard. and thank you for being so understanding towards me. puen must not take things for granted anymore. she must not.

2009-01-24T22:34:00.005+08:00

haha second week of school is over(: and CNY is round the corner(:

h3 officially started and its quite fun, although i dont really get some parts. haha. ytd was happy happy day because it was cny celeb(: performed ji ti and I DIDNT FORGET ANY STEPS! haha. went to ernest's house in the evening and had loads of fun! vballers are a bunch of funny ppl! haha. played zhong ji mi ma with the super spicy curry as punishment and played cherates too! it was super hilarious when we see everyone trying to act and guess the words! haha. dinner was good. brilliant curry with roti jala, superb smaba balachan, nice bee hoon and mummy's fav crabmeat ball soup(: simple meal but happy moments(:

went for sd 25th anniversary daimokukai. heard the updates from the main committee. sounds like a fun and exciting event(: there will be a panel sharing about ikeda sensei's peace proposal, the soka youth dance crew is dancing, and many many other performances((: yays! 28th feb! its gonna be a success! went dinner at some weird steamboat restaurant in kallang. the food wasnt exactly good but the company was good(: at least it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. haha. made new frens like with pretty vanessa and had a good time talking to sam and mx(: did stupid things again like shooting a watermelon out of my mouth and laughing like some mad woman, drop the chopstick onto the hotplate, and many many other things! really enjoyed talking to minxue laods loads(: photos and videos will be up as soon as i get them(:

and it seems to be the season of love over the past few months because everyone around seems to be attached! my dear twinnie is attached to mr west peach ! super unexpected but im super super HAPPY for you my dear! and knowing that mr west peach treats you so so sweetly and nicely, im happy happy for you! and 3 days after twinnie is attached, mr jeremy chang is attached too! hahaha! and over the hols, many ppl got attached too. isnt it indeed a season of love blossoming? but like what ywd chief said," having a boyfriend is a benefit(:" =D

BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME
CELINE DION

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

current health status: lack of seratonin

back to school

2009-01-12T17:27:00.002+08:00

day one of back to school. haha i dont like my timetable=( i end very late everyday either because of h3 or because of trng=( and i have like a 7period break before h3 starts on thurs!? omg! i have to be self discipline and start studying puen! got a new teacher for physics. mrs tan. i got nothing much to say for now but i guess i really have to buck up on my side for physics. am thankful that mr pek is still our chem tutor and he is our new ct(: i will be seeing mr pek alot this year with h3, ct and chem! haha!

O levels are out today. NICOLE HAN XINJIE!! omg im so happy for you((: yays! you this bimbo can come to vj le!! so happy((: i hope we will be able to pull all of them in through appeal !

ok thats all folks for now. its really nice to be back in school and see those familiar faces(:

new dawn.

2009-01-11T09:19:00.002+08:00

back from FLINT kenshukai! well honestly, it was rather chaotic but its FINE because i know the comm put in a lot of effort in planning it(: caught up with a lot of peeps whom i haven met for ages, like YINGLIN (the pretty girl), VANESSA (the one who really touched my heart with her song) and many many others! during the kenshu, i was once again reaffirmed that i will NEVER NEVER be an ACCOUNTANT!! its really just a job too tedious and tiring! for that, i salute mummy who is an accountant! haha!

enjoyed two sessions the most during the kenshu, dialogue with GD and dialogue with YWD Chief, Lay Huay, and Senior Advisor, Ming Har. i really learnt alot esp from lay huay and ming har about how we can approach inactive members and do shakubuku. it all boils down back to one thing, sincerity. more often than not, it is your sincerity of wanting the other party to achieve absolute happiness, wanting them to experience the greatness of this Buddhism, and wanting them to lead a value creating life that really touch them. and also, whenever a member rejects your call or avoid you, the most important thing is to never give up on them. these members are your members for a reason; nothing in life is by chance or coincidental. so for that, you have to take responsibility for it, and when you do, you will definitely change the person's life and also do your own human revolution. but that will definitely happen only when you base yourself on faith in the Gohonzon.

another point shared by them was about leading a victorious life. what does it mean to lead a victorious life? is it about achieving many many awards and prestigious competition, or is it about you being a famous star, or is it about you scoring a perfect score for every exam? well that is one aspect of it, but one can only say that they have led a victorious life when they have overcame their daily weaknesses and inspire the others to do so too. it is only when you overcome your small small daily weaknesses, such as being late for school, not doing your gongyo conscientiously, then you can strive big in life. because in these everyday struggle of yours to overcome problems, you are actually training your character, polishing yourself for bigger battles. and when those battles do arrive, you will be all prepared to welcome it and overcome it, achieving absolute victory. and when that happens, others around you will be inspired by you and they will also be curious about the secret behind your success because actual proofs are the ones that really encourage others because they witness it themselves. so what is the secret behind your success? that is none other than faith in the Gohonzon (:

for that, i will ensure that those members under my care will be actively participating in ASD activities this year and they will be able to grow and score many many victories in 2009(:

there was this person who really touched my soul ytd. i almost cried when i hear her speak of her testimonial and the reason behind the song. and after hearing her piece, i re-read the lyrics and felt that it is really applicable to me too. presenting THE NEW DAWN, written by VANESSA PHANG(:

NEW DAWN.

There were times when I found myself,
walking down this familiar path.
There were times when I found myself,
asking why some nights are so long and tough.

Life can make a sport of us
Sometimes,
When we try so hard,
Yet reap no rewards.
Devilish functions on a roll;

But just as we thought
Why do we always trip and fall;
Have we forgotten,
We've got the ultimate treasure of all?

Life the crimson sun,
Emerging from the New dawn;
Living the Mystic Law,
I'd remember my mentor's call;
The darker the day,
The nearer the dawn.

In the crossroads we find ourselves,
Uncertain;
of what lies ahead.
Engulfed by emotions,
Overlooking the treasure in our hearts.

Wasted time in blind pursuit,
Of what was deemed, significant
Fighting so hard for those relative-ness,
Neglecting my absolute happiness.
Life condition taking its toll.

But just as we thought
Why do we always trip and fall;
Have we forgotten,
We've got the ultimate treasure of all?

Life the crimson sun,
Emerging from the New dawn;
Living the Mystic Law,
I'd remember my mentor's call;
The darker the day,
The nearer the dawn.

Let me renew my vow,
Sensei.
To be leaders of this new dawn.
Like a flame alit in the dark
Let my spark fly

But just as we thought
Why do we always trip and fall;
Have we forgotten,
We've got the ultimate treasure of all?

Life the crimson sun,
Emerging from the New dawn;
Living the Mystic Law,
I'd remember my mentor's call;
The darker the day,
The nearer the dawn.

A New Dawn,
Has begun.

with that, i shall end here and school is starting in tomorrow! screams! busy week ahead! institution planning cum meeting, reunion dinner, khaki gathering, training! jiayous puen(:

good luck to all who are collecting their 'O's tmr! to nicole and freda! i hope you two can come over to vj(:
good luck to those who are still having your Rs! you guys can do it! gambatte!(:

2009-01-07T13:00:00.001+08:00

after a long search for blogskins, i finally settled on this one. haha. i got loads of work to do but i just cant settle down to finish them up! *SCREAMS*

the needle on the compass needs to stop spinning and lead the way.

2009-01-06T16:51:00.004+08:00

went for v11 chalet(: it was nice to see familiar faces back together and catching up with people whom who haven for ages. enjoyed the family catch up plus gossip session in the room; enjoyed watching stars during bbq; enjoyed the chalet(:

thanks to ian who booked the super big and good bungalow for us at super low cost! thanks to may dear who has been trying to get everything put in place(: and to alicea laopo! im so sorry about cny shopping>.< will try to find time okay?

school is starting next week and i haven really settled down. my brain feels so rusty and i lost my momentum. need to find it back or else im dead. the next few weekends are going to be busy busy. with early reunion dinner, FLINT kenshu, khaki gathering and cny, how not to be busy? haha.

and all the best to those who are going to have their Rs this week and next week! jiayous!(:

yes and must.
do the right things at the right time.

P.S. we haven take our family photo yet! and he is suppose to treat us! i dont care! HAHA!

2009-01-01T23:30:00.002+08:00

yays! im going to see this pretty lady on beside me in less than 24h!(: happy happy(:
jiayous twinnie xingyi! chop chop finish up your work and go to bed! no panda twinnie tmr! will be giving you moral support back at home(: LOVES!

2009-01-01T22:11:00.006+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

went to jumbo@dempsey(: always feel happy whenever i go there! chili crab made my day(: glad that mummy is happy with the present i got her(: went for morning gongyo today and saw the crew danced. super good and am really touched by you guys! after performing at countdown, you guys rushed down to ica and stayed over! your efforts for kofu wont go to waste alright! (:

tmr is shuqi's and sensei's birthday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY((:

meeting up with xingyi, jer and mx for nationwide youth leaders meeting(: yays! haven met them for ages! school's starting for sis tmr. hope she will begin anew in her new school and buck up. jiayous mei!

that was how a fool would have thought and spent the last day of 2008. but at least the fool woke up and thought through stuff(:
and its feels rather weird because my phone was on silent close to 24/7 today. haha.

2008.

2008-12-31T18:55:00.004+08:00

just got home from biking with the team from ecp to changi. it rained and all of us got drenched, but its nice biking in the rain(: got cheated on rental but nvm. haha. its really nice biking because there are alot of pretty places along the way(: i will bike from home to school one day. i will.

anyway today is the last day of 2008. 2008. its been a crazy and memorable year. got to know a crazy bunch of people from s41, made some really good frens (BFF!), got to know some even better through the year(: got to participate in many memorable and one of its kind events. two of my most memorable events in 2008 are OCIP and STOMP((:

i have learnt a lot of things this year, esp on intra and inter personal skills. everyone is uniquely different. so when relating to different people, you will need to use different strategies.and its really tough. sometimes no matter how hard you try, the relationship may not improve and instead deteorate. oh wells. such things are lifelong skills and they take a lifetime to pick up. thats one of my resolutions for next year, to do my human revolution and improve my relationships with people(:

well if there is one word to describe this year, its ROLLER COASTER.

life is indeed filled with challenges.
sometimes you may do something that pleases one party but hurt another.
sometimes you may think that you are right but its not the case in reality
there are so many of such 'sometimes' that really drives you crazy and cause your crust to crumble.

but thats just life.
nothing is perfect and smooth sailing.
you just need to have the resilence to hang on and go through the struggle.
on top of that,
having a strong faith in the Gohonzon and having GOOD friends around who never fails to be there for you to spur you on are really important too(:

so on that note,
i would like to say a big thank you to all my friends who helped me through the many dark moments in 2008, esp MAY, ERNEST, JUNE! i really appreciate you guys a lot and am really thankful for having you all in my life(: cant imagine how life owuld be without the many good friends around in school and gakkai! thank you my dear friends(:

just as ikeda sensei always say," the darker the night, the nearer the dawn". as long as one dont give up, you will definitely pull through and achieve victory(: with that, HAPPY NEW YEAR to all and have a good year ahead(:

puen, be strong and 2009 will be a good year!
and of course, im really glad to have you by my side through this year(:

2008-12-29T17:22:00.002+08:00

this was what i heard today. "eating makes one hungry."

haha!

happy day!(:

BFF!

2008-12-24T14:25:00.002+08:00

BFF!! YAYS!!

yesterday was a happy day((: thank you BFF for your gifts! im sorry i didnt get you all much but check your emails okay! i did something for you all((: hope you all like it!

2008-12-21T09:55:00.001+08:00

please tell me it wasnt just all a dream and illusion.
i need to find it back before its too late.
i need to..

USA(:

2008-12-21T08:06:00.018+08:00

hi world! im back from states! haha ok. shall blog about it now(:

in short, it is a really good but tiring trip! haha!
the FLIGHT was horribly disgusting because we didnt have a personal entertainment system so all you could do was to SLEEP!
the FOOD there was good but its all western (steaks, burger and blah blah).
the PLACE is simply pretty(:
the SHOPPING! super duber good and crazy((: bought damn a lot of things!
the BUS JOURNEY from las vegas to san francisco was horrible because it was through a desert! sat on the bus for the whole day and didnt do anything else!
the COMPANY was nice(:

DISNEYLAND

its my third visit to disneyland so i wasnt particularly excited. personally, i felt that the one in japan was better because it somehow feels more majestic than the one in LA. and it is a lot cleaner too! but there are some nice rides that japan didnt have like the Finding Nemo Submarine Voyage. haha!

UNIVERSAL STUDIO

its my second visit to universal studio but this one is really different from the one japan! haha! the die die must go ride there is the STUDIO TOUR! you really go behind the scences to see whats happening in hollywood everyday! and its really cool! there is really nothing that is impossible in hollywood! there are really good rides there too like Revenge of The Mummy! its really good((: haha!

HOLLYWOOD BOULEVARD

didnt really like the place alot. nothing much there. haha. but you get to see the footprints and handprints of the stars outside Mann's Chinese Theatre. there are close to 100 odd prints there. there were Potter's, Harrison Ford's, Eddie Murphy's, Will Smith's and many many more! there is also the Walk of Fame where the names of almost every other hollywood stars are printed on the floor! i think almost every hollywood star you can think of, they will be there! haha!

GRAND CANYON

omg the place is just simply PRETTY ((: the photos will do the telling. haha. but one thing is that it is really really really cold! everyone was shivering when we were up there but no regrets because we managed to catch the sunset and sunrise there!(: the place is simply majestic and magnificent!(: its really the highlight of the trip(:

LAS VEGAS

this place is really an eye-opener for everyone(: other than the casinos, there are also the super super pretty hotels with different themes each season! and they have performances outside some hotels. the fountain one outside Belagio was the best i think. its really nice because you have the Eiffel Tower as the background! the winning hotel, VENETIAN, really deserves the title! it has an interior design of Venice and it is daytime all day round in there! there are even gondolas that you can ride on in the hotel! cool right? vegas is simply damn cool because it centralises so many iconic landmarks around the world in just one place(: ohoh and i played the jackpot in the casinos ! its really cool! haha! but i was stopped becuase i was underaged=S

SAN FRANCISCO

this is a town filled with many many steep slopes and it is also where you can find most of the Chinese in States! its really nice because we got to travel around the city ourselves for one whole day. we travelled on the cable car which is really cool because it goes down the steep slopes and there are no doors to it! we went to have our share of THE CHEESECAKE FACTORY, where we dined outside in the open chilly air and served by super good looking waiters=p

SGI-USA

this is of course a part of the trip that cannot be missed! as in every overseas trip each year, we will go visit the kaikans in the country and learn from them! so we visited the World Cultural Centre, SGI Plaza, and the SanFrancisco Kaikan! particularly impressed with the World Cultural Centre because it is really a collection of all the 192 countries practising around the world. the furnitures in the auditorium are from different parts of the world. like the chairs are from finland, the carpet is from another country that i cant remember (oops!) and stuff. the gajokai at the world cultural centre is also really nice cause he helped us open up the various rooms so that we can visit them(:

SUA

this place is my personal favourite during the trip. it is really an amazing college. the campus is really big but there are only 400 students! mind you, vj alone has close to about 800 odd students. the whole campus is built based on donations from everyone around the world. and it is really touching to hear some of the stories of the donors. many of them arent very affluent people themselves but they have the heart to donate and play their part in soka education. its really the thought that counts. so in order to repay their debt of gratitude for making the school possible, every year, there will be one day where the students of SUA will do thanks giving to these donors. they will write to the donors to thank and show their appreciation for what they have done for the college. they may not have seen or know who the donor is but they still write with their hearts to give thanks(:

and ikeda sensei is really thoughtful because when he started the university, he only had two simple requests. one is to serve good food to the students so that they can be recharged to continue studying. two is to have good and comfortable hostels so that the students can have ample rest and have a condusive place to study in. because of that, the canteen has really really nice food and the hostels are really big and spacious. the students also have private toilets in their own room! so sweet of sensei right?

our tour guides, who were ex-students in SUA, Heather and Ramos, are really nice(: they shared with us about their experience in SUA and from them, i can really feel that the college is one that really grooms leaders and global citizens. in SUA, they really learn how to be global citizens of the 21st century and critical thinkers. i hope i will have the opportunity to study there in future one day(:

okay thats about all that i wan to share about the trip because i haven got much time=/ got discussion meeting in awhile! so take care people and enjoy the seasons of thanks giving(:

some other pictures of states(:

FOOD!(:

super random post!

2008-12-07T14:30:00.002+08:00

okay im at taipei now. waiting for transfer flight to los angles!(:

and was just told that two people that i know just got together and its like so unexpected! never heard anything about them before! haha! ok random!

another random note. china airlines is surprisingly better than i thought it would be! haha!

ok better sign off before i become even more random!>.<

enjoy your holidays in SINGAPORE while im enjoying mine in STATES(:

2008-12-06T15:33:00.003+08:00

leaving for states tomorrow morning for about 11 days (i think).

grand canyon, SUA,
here i come(:

wish me luck for the journey on the plane!>.<

what an emotional and winding week...

,Comma

2008-12-04T21:03:00.004+08:00

MAY LOO EE TING!!
thank you once again for everything okay? really appreciate it and enjoyed talking to you (as always!) (: shall meet up and talk more often okay? love you! (oops! later i get killed=/ haha!) stay strong and things will be good for us all from now on yeah?(:

and yes,
it is a comma.
it will be a right decision.
and it has to be.

dream.

2008-12-04T00:00:00.003+08:00

she is my idol.
simply a perfect dancer.
shes got everything a ballerina needs.
Polina Semionova.

and those will be the days.
will they ever return?
will i ever be able to put them on again?
i really want to.

2008-12-01T19:26:00.002+08:00

it was much worse than i expected.
oh wells, a fullstop is a fullstop.
a year is a year.

be strong.

2008-11-29T21:15:00.004+08:00

i miss the students at Thaton School.
i miss their innocence and passion to learn.
i miss the times when they were laughing at us because we cant pronounce the words in thai.
i miss the times that we spent together as a team over the past one week.
i miss mixing cement.
i miss being part of the human chain.
i miss those singing sessions.
i miss the times when we cheer each other on.
i miss the ankle biteys.
i miss will i am.
i miss thoe.
i miss the nights.
i miss the pitch darkness we experience every night.
i miss the stars-filled sky.
i miss everyone who went for the trip!
i miss the trip!

i want to go back to PAKUI!!
and looking at the pictures that esmond took didnt help at all!=(

boss we must go back after A's okay!?

touched(:

2008-11-28T22:30:00.004+08:00

"just want to thank you, puen.

thanks for all the things along the way this year!! without your help, it'll never come true.

it's really nice to room with u again. hope you'll be the one from the ogranising com to stay with us at the resort. since Japan trip, we havent been travelling together for quite long.

it's really a pity that i cant come back for the 06V11 class chalet next year in Jan. maybe after next year A-levels, we can have some outings or class chalet again. yeah! this year V11 won the invigorate again! V11 rocks!

yep, good luck for your A-level mother tongue! i'm sure you can get A1 this time! jia you!

maybe it's too early to write this since there are still 2 more months left for this year. but i m just touched today. thanks!

the rest, maybe i'll keep it until the end of the year. i'll post again."

--shuqi. 30 oct 2008

aww!! am really touched when i read it! thanks shuqi and sorry for being so lag! its been great to have you for the ocip trip and the friendship forged will never be forgotten(: shall catch up with you again when we see each other during lectures(:

its because of people like these that motivate me to put in my 101% in everything that i do, although it might be a very tedious job to complete(:

so happy now! haha!

more than words

2008-11-26T16:58:00.001+08:00

Saying I love you,
Is not the words,
I want to hear from you,
It's not that I want you,
Not to say but if you only knew,
How easy,
It would be to show me how you feel,

More than words,
Is all you have to do,
To make it real,
Then you wouldn't have to say,
That you love me,
Cause I'd already know,

What would you do,
If my heart was torn in two,

More than words to show you feel,
That your love for me is real,

What would you say,
If I took those words away,

Then you couldn't make things new,
Just by saying I love you,

It's more than words,
It's more than what you say,
It's the things you do,
Oh yeah,
It's more than words,
It's more than what you say,
It's the things you do,
Oh yeah,

Now that I've tried to,
Talk to you and make you understand,
All you have to do,
Is close your eyes,
And just reach out your hands,
And touch me,
Hold me close don't ever let me go,

More than words,
Is all I ever needed you to show,
Then you wouldn't have to say,
That you love me,
Cause I'd already know,

What would you do,
If my heart was torn in two,

More than words to show you feel,
That your love for me is real,
What would you say,
If I took those words away,
Then you couldn't make things new,(no no)
Just by saying I love you.....

2008-11-26T16:49:00.003+08:00

the going will be tough
but we will be able to pull through it
become stronger than before

we will prove that we can do it
and we will do it.

when reassurances are needed,
they can be found deep within our hearts

7months
isnt a short period
and it is sufficient to pull us through
the tough journey
that we will soon be embarking on.

--

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you, forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.

REACH(ED)!

2008-11-26T15:02:00.008+08:00

yes people i survived the trip and im back in one piece!(:

it is really a wonderful, brilliant, marvellous, bravo, great trip! although the journey was a tough and challenging one, we pulled it through. there are many things that happened, many stories to tell. there are many thoughts to share, many emotions to reveal. there are just too much to be written, so just a brief one and the rest will be vividly remembered within my heart.

---

we embarked on this journey half a year ago
as a challenge to ourselves.

we met with a lot of obstacles and challenges,
not knowing where to go,
not knowing who to turn to.
but we all stood firm,
and decided that the trip will happen
no matter what happens.

there were times when we could not come to an agreement,
there were times when we were lost,
there were times when we felt like there was no hope,

there were times when we were all very tired
there were times when we were disheartened
there were times when we just wanted to say goodbye to this journey

but there were many more times
when we decided to grit our teeth tight
and continue pressing on.

THEY appeared
in many different ways
to offer us a helping hand
and to shine the light
along the dark, rocky journey.

THEY were there
to show us what happiness really is,
to demonstrate what carefree is all about,
and what content really means.

THEY were there
to provide us with a different perspective,
a different lifestyle,
a different value system.

THEY were there
to set us thinking,
and reflecting upon ourselves.

THEY were there
to teach us to cherish,
and to appreciate what we have back at home.

THEY were always there
to give us pointers,
to show us the way through.
they may not be explicit with their answers,
but they always set us thinking.

THEY were always there
to point out our mistakes,
to identify our areas for improvements.
those moments of reflection may seem harsh,
but they are really treasured and missed.

THEY were also always there
to offer us encouragements,
to support our plans and pre-trip sessions.
without them,
our plans would have just remained as plans.

THEY were also always there
to help to teach and interact with the students,
to make Thaton School such a lively place.
because of them,
love letters from the students kept coming in
to express their gratitude,
to affirm us of our efforts.

THEY were also always there
to shovel the pebbles,
to fill the buckets with sand,
to mix the cement,
to build the cubical,
to relieve those muscle aches.
because everyone played their part,
thats why the cubical existed
before any of us knew it.

THEY have helped me
develop myself
and make me a stronger girl.

THEY have helped me
crawl out of my nutshell
and be exposed to the outside world.

THEY have helped me
stretch my potential
and unleash many things within me

THEY have helped me
and i hope i have helped them
in a way or another

because only then,
i have achieved
what i set out to
at the beginning of this journey.

---

the planning and execution of this trip is definitely not an easy one and it wouldnt have been possible without the following people:

1) EXCO!! Kelvin, Poline, Donovan, Yiliang, Cephas, Charmanine
i am really thankful for you guys! without the support from everyone of you, i dont think we could have made this trip possible! despite all the problems and disagreements we had, we all pressed on and encouraged each other on. there is just too much that i want to say to you guys but all in all it is really my honour to be part of the exco and GOOD JOB everyone!(:

2) teachers! mr teo, mr pek, ms ng
thank you teachers for always helping us along. with your guidance, we (esp the exco) all have grown in one way or another. the reflection sessions where we trashed things out were really useful as they really help us develop and reflect. you guys were also always there to encourage us and spur us on, when you all know that the going will be tough for us. i really thank you all deep down from my heart. thank you.

3) bunk mates at pakui! bernice jing haoran
omg!! im super uber super uber thankful for you all!! you girls always stay up and wait for me to come back from my reflections late into the night, help to chase the puppies, kittens, chicks, lizards and what not, in our hut away. the firing sessions we have at random places will not be forgotten and the times when we chat, and massage late into the nights will also be remembered! and thank you all for putting up with me when i had diarrhoea that night and that night of diarrhoea will always be part of my memory(: i love you girls! thank you!

4) wushu people! jing esmond shuqi kevin alvin jt zhaijuan elroy
you guys did a brilliant job during the cultural night! despite all the last min changes and stuff, you guys still did it! im so proud of you all and i hope you guys enjoyed the practices we had together and all the laughter we shared together!(:

5) bus mates! poline cephas kelvin alvin jt donovan caitlin yiliang
all the eating, sleeping, laughing, singing done on the bus will never be forgotten! holding on to our pretzels and singing our lungs out to the various songs will always be remembered! thanks for making the long bus rides so much more bearable!(:

6) random people whom i want to thank and affirm!
ck: dude thanks for always going crazy and helping with the education planning bit! i will make more cornflakes for you when i got time okays! really glad to have known you better this trip(:

shihang: thanks for helping to get the cultural performance going okay! it is really greatly appreciated!

wuqiong and shuqi: thanks for being so supportive for everything, be it pre trip or what! and thanks for all the fond memories we had bunking together during the last night and I WANT TO PLAY 蹲麻子!!

althea: thanks for pei-ng me talk through the last night despite you being super tired okay! really enjoyed catching up with you and yup, hope your auditions went well(:

caitlin: omg SAME VILLAGE!! really lucky to have you around so that when the guys are in their own world, i wont be alone and at least now we got a bit more power to fight back! now we need to recruit more ppl into our village to slam those guys down alrights?(:

finally,
a big THANK YOU to everyone who has made this trip what it was throughout the last week!

VIP REACH 2008.
Chiangmai, Thailand.

--

time for some photos! people, please send me photos okay!!

the temple we visited on the last day.

the pigs that made our toilet experience so much more wonderful...

the cute puppies in my hut!
but sadly they are badly traumatised since young. they need SPCA!

the village.

the children in the canteen waiting for lunch.

the children praying before school starts.

my bunk mates in the village with our hosts!

bunk mates in our hut!(:

the fly-killers!

06v11 who were there(:

the shot that wuqiong asked for.

VIP REACH(ED)!

enjoying my life(:

2008-11-16T10:58:00.003+08:00

okay busy busy week.

the week was packed with
ocip
wushu
catching up with TP ppl((:

cant update much now because im suppose to be packing! leaving for OCIP tmr((:
OCIP will be a meaningful trip and the reflection session on thurs was indeed helpful(:
will have a proper post when im back next next monday(:

way to go VIP REACH!!
and to all, ENJOY YOUR VACATION!!

we've just began / the carpenters

2008-11-11T18:02:00.003+08:00

We've only just begun to live
White lace and promises
A kiss for luck and we're on our way
We've only just begun

Before the rising sun we fly
So many roads to choose
We start our walking
And learn to run
And yes! We've only just begun

Sharin' horizons that are new to us
Watchin' the sings along the way
Talkin' it over just the two of us
Workin' together day to day,
together
together

And when the evening comes we smile
So much of life ahead
We'll find a place where there's room to grow
And yes! We've only just begun

Sharin' horizons that are new to us
Watchin' the sings along the way
Talkin' it over just the two of us
Workin' together day to day,
together
together

And when the evening comes we smile
So much of life ahead
We'll find a place where there's room to grow
And yes! We've only just begun

2008-11-11T17:18:00.000+08:00

only blue only blue
爱让人好忧郁
我的心我的心
蓝蓝地
我真的想找一条船
能远远离开这片沙滩
每次又回到同样海边
还是对你想念
想念你有点blue
没有人能像你
留给我的回忆
有点blue ooh
only blue

indeed..

2008-11-11T17:17:00.000+08:00

"When great evil occurs, great good follows."

2008-11-06T21:31:00.002+08:00

this is

where they are now,
where i ended off.

will they come back to reality?

2008-11-06T21:30:00.002+08:00

a quantum leap occurred.

kay took a quantum leap.

the flipside!

2008-11-06T21:20:00.003+08:00

haha this is lag but KUDOS to my pw groupmates!(:

this is half my group. dhea me and leo plus elizabeth and liangzhi! vj077! well done guys for op! really appreciate your efforts all these while for pw! despite the last mintue hicuup and changes, you guys never complained and continued working hard! its really appreciated(: we will get an A for pw cause the A belongs to us!(:

from ikeda sensei

2008-11-06T15:56:00.005+08:00

"Let's become the type of person who can lift other people's spirits
and help them to have confidence. A person like that is indeed a true leader. Let's do our very best to help our fellow members by
giving warm and kind support and taking thoughtful and considerate action for the sake of their happiness."

"Each of you should summon up the courage of a lion king and never succumb to threats from anyone. The lion king fears no other beast, nor do its cubs."

gambatte puen!(:

2008-11-06T15:46:00.003+08:00

haha okay a quite update. haven been blogging for long.

been a busy week. my first off day at home!

those are the volunteers who went to the zoo on tues with the northlight students. interesting bunch and handling them can be quite hard for some like sherman! haha and sherman's hair is still surprisingly intact after the bus ride! hahaha! the photos are here! credits to dhea!

had our first hol trng ytd. lost touch liaoz... haha but it was fun as usual! haha. now im nua cause there was pt ytd after trng=S hope i can make full use of this hol trng to do improve my standard esp for my sword=X

just went for vaccination at dr tan. haha. not as bad as i thought and i survived(: haha! sorry for making you walk so much and ps your ban-mian khaki=/ tmr is trng plus ocip pre-trip. hope it will turn out fine. ocip must be a success, and it will be a success no matter what happens okay folks! jiayous! its just one week plus more and we can do it cause we are all in it together(:

saturday is yproms(: going to meet up with the girls again for cip! haha! two cips in a week! next week will be hectic s well but its good cause my holidays are occupied. now i have to think if i should take up the intern and drop out of the US trip. its time to do cost benefit analysis (haha!) and i need abundant of wisdom for that!

jiayous people to those who are still OP-ing!

and good luck, all the best, jiayous, and everything to those in the above picture, as well as all the other j2s, for your A levels! its gonna be fine! just chiong and do your best and enjoy the labour after that!(:

2008-11-02T22:02:00.003+08:00

jeremy's theory:
"relative happiness is better than nothing,
absolute happiness is better than relative happiness,
nothing is better than absolute happiness,
so nothing is still the best!"

"its like nothing is better than A1,
and F9 is better than nothing,
so F9 is the best."

haha! nice one man!

yays! meeting up with xingyi jer jengkhit on the 14th for brunch at jer's cafe!
hope there wont be ocip stuff on that day>.< sometimes its is true...

2008-11-02T21:50:00.003+08:00

and the heart wants what the heart wants.
even when it was complete nonsense.
even when it meant throwing a life's balance completely into the debit column.
even when it mean more tears.
even when it knew better.
especially then.

2008-11-02T21:33:00.002+08:00

OP IS OVER!!(:
PW IS (almost) OVER!!(:

yays coolness bananas(:
went to leisure and bowl and eat.
fun(:

walking out with june and sherman from leisure along the road was nice.
think i will go back there just to walk(:
empty.
windy.
wonderful.

now theres only one thing left.
it has got to be a victory and a success.
and it will be(:

jiayous to all who are still OP-ing!
jiayous to all who are taking their As!!
all the best(:

2008-10-30T21:15:00.002+08:00

one more down.
one will be down tmr.
another left to go!

jiayous puen!(:

----

no matter how tired it is,
i will hang on.

and prove that
i made a right decision.

2008-10-30T21:08:00.003+08:00

credits to my lovely laogong who's 'tau hua yun' is blooming these days(:

so sweet of you dear! thanks(:
dont forget me because of it okay!
our shopping date!!